The Blackout! When I got Lost and had to escape the Darkness

     I have no idea what I am looking at! I'm staring into the darkness and staring down a creature that may or may not be there. My eyes have not caught it yet but there is something inside me that can just feel it. I felt it looking at me, just staring me down. Motionless with his eyes staring into my soul. I break my own stare and start to look down, somehow I am just now realizing that I haven't moved, no i'm unable to move. Scared stiff, every part of my body trapped in its current position. However my mind is running in circles at lightning speed. No thoughts or why, it is just taking off aimlessly.

     I shift my sights back to the shadows, trying to catch a glimpse of the creature before me. But nothing! Nothing is there. Why am I locked in this way? What is wrong with me? I retreat into my own mind and try to find my way through the rough dark terrain. Every step I take the world seems to rock and shift. The walls around me move and disappear. Even the ground shakes and cracks. If i'm not careful a chunk of it might just break off and disappear. The winds blow in a strange pattern, quick wisps like sand storms just taking everything with them.

     I take a deep breath and try to get ahold of myself and calm my mind. The storm slowed down for a moment and I see a speck of light. Is this really the craziness I put my mind though? Is this really all in my head? and for what? What happened that triggered this downward spiral deeper down the rabbit hole? I wrap my brain trying to think back and trying to gain my composure, but I just seem to get more lost.

     The shadows! This all started with the shadows. The darkness that seemed to surround me and the feeling of something hiding, waiting for me to let my guard down. A creature ready to destroy my soul and take over my mind.

     I take another deep breath and try to clear my mind. All the clutter that is bouncing around I let go of and try to give myself a clean canvas. I even feel myself start to move, letting go of more clutter. My mind begins to clear even more. I start moving and the action actually helps me to think a little more clearly and suddenly a bright light start to shine over the darkness. The sun has risen into this valley of shadows and I can see everything. there are no more shadows anywhere.

     A little confused but I start to think back. Trying to remember any kind of trigger point that could have happened before the blackout.

THAT'S IT!

     Suddenly the idea and time comes into my mind, almost clear as day. I was working on my project and it wasn't turning out as well as I had hoped. I was having fun but as I shamed the progress I didn't get any thoughts of recognition. the silence started to make me self concious and I began to doubt myself. I didn't mean to, it just happened and I falled further down the rabbit hole. That's when it all started, the creature in the shadows was born in my own personal fear. He then turned my world black and blinded me from the truth as I gave him more strength and attention. He put me into a mental trap that was tough to escape from. But I have survived and I have come out the other side stronger. I am here creating for me. My life is  mine to choose how to live and I should not let the thoughts or actions of others affect my dreams and passions.

Be you, don't let the thoughts or actions of others drive you off your path of your dreams and passions. Create because YOU want to and because YOU enjoy it! and just HAVE FUN with it!


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Do you Celebrate your wins or take yourself out?

     Are you celebrating your wins? Do you know how to celebrate your wins? 

This was something I have always struggled with, but I have learned it is important.

Whenever you reach your goal or take an important step in the right direction it's a good practice to enjoy it. Do something for yourself and appreciate what you have done. Appreciate why you are doing it and what you have accomplished. Not only will this feel good, but it will also encourage and inspire you to do better in the future. In the back of your mind you are being rewarded for doing and accomplishing your tasks and goals.

     It doesn't have to be anything big or insane but sometimes even the little things do help to keep you going. A small token or even a small donation towards a larger goal can make a big impact.

     I think this is an area everyone struggles with, myself included. Try it out and see if it works, watch how it changes your motivation and inspiration.

Thank you for reading, please leave a comment and let me know what you think. What kind of artist dates do you take yourself on?

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Make your creativity a Priority!

 

 Clock in and Clock out!

    This new creative venture is your dream, your true passion, and yet we do not put a priority on it. Our main goal is to live  our life correct and full? So put some priorities on how you spend it.

    Every day we go to our "day job." You know that place that just covers the bills so we can do what we want to on the side. That job we show up on time, we work, we take our breaks, and we also clock out on time. For the most part at least, so why can't we follow the same structure for when we create and follow our passions?

-Start the day doing something you love, even it its just for a few minutes.
-Decide on what's really important and set a deadline to go into the studio. Ex. I am going into the studio from 8-9 tonight, the hardest part is getting started. After you start you'll find you get lost and don't want to stop
-Find something that gets you motivated and in the mood. I put on my headphones and they cut off the world. Do you like to stand or dance while you work? Do you play movies in the background? Go outside at a  park or the woods. Find a way to kick yourself in gear and get yourself moving.

Please let me know if this had helped or if you have any questions. Leave a comment and let me know if you need help with this topic.

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Get lost in your True Imagination

 

     True imagination and the world of fantasy lies just behind the eyes of a child. In a special place that has been untouched by the ways of the world and the society that surrounds us. They don't have anything holding them back. No filters, they just say what's on their mind and come up with the most outrageous stories you have ever heard.

     As we get older we start getting rules imprinted into our minds. We are told how to hold a pencil, how to color inside the lines, how art should look or the right techniques to use. Little by little true creativity and imagination is chipped away and drilled out of us.

    Dig back into that childlike wonder forget about the way you should or are suppose to do and create without a specific agenda. Let your subconscious take over and have fun in every moment.

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What happens if you DON'T take the Chance!

Are You afraid to put yourself out there or to ask?
Are you afraid to share your work?

Think about the people you are taking your impact away from!
Think about the possibilities that are being crushed because you were afraid!

For ME,

What if I never reached out to Mayse's family?
What if I never made the effort to visit when she was in the hospital?

I have been on this project for about 6 - 7 months now and I have made an impact on 4 families. I started off rough and made some mistakes or maybe just figuring the plan out. The current legs of the project were created in the last 3 months that has truly connected with those 4 families. And I keep thinking that this is only the beginning.

I am so thankful that I stepped up and reached out and I am going to continue to reach out to as many people as I can.

Don't be afraid to ask for help or opinions!
Don't be afraid to put yourself out there!
Don't be afraid to share your genius with the world!


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